Naikan reflection day 4

On trying to meet my savings goal ($10,000 by the end of 2018)

1. I have gotten halfway there and the goal is still in sight. I have the ability and resources to reach the goal.

2. I have taken classes and CLEPs over the past year to finally reach my Masters plus 30. This required a lot of money and a great amount of time and effort. I worked Regents scoring for per session to reach this goals.

3. I have been persuaded on several occasions to donate money to organizations and campaigns, even though I can’t really afford it. This is keeping me from my goal. And I hit a curb with my car, so I needed to buy 2 new tires. I have been unable to be as strict as I should be about some expenses. 

Naikan reflection day 3

On the Whole Life Challenge:

1. I have received some structure, more exercise, weight loss, a great feeling of confidence, success, a chance at introspection.

2. I have brought a willingness to try and adapt, a level of commitment (although far weaker this time), team leadership (for the second one), a sense that I can meet physical goals even though I am not as young as I once was. :-D

3. I have resisted this time. I have been lazy and complacent. I always blame stuff like that on being a little depressed but really, that’s all the more reason to take advantage of the challenge. 

Naikan reflection day 2

Being a mom:

1. I have received the greatest joy of my life, two little angels whose company I adore, whose curiosity, humor, love, interest in everything, openness, confidence inspire me and make me proud. 

2. I have given my love and attention, putting them above anything else. Everything now is for them. 

3. I have sometimes been impatient, frustrated, unsure of how to handle things. Distracted or depressed. Sometimes I wonder if I should push harder on some things. 

Naikan reflection day 1

This week I am supposed to choose a situation, event, relationship, etc. each day and write about these 3 three things: 1. What I received from it; 2. What I contributed to it; 3. What trouble I caused it.

Maintaining our home:

1. JJ has been doing a lot of laundry, organizing of toys , and almost all of the grocery shopping and yard work.

2. I cook, clean the kitchen, clean the bathrooms, keep things tidy, sort through stuff and try to get rid of stuff or keep it put away/organized, shovel snow, and take care of all recreation and social events.

3. I don’t have a deep passion for maintaining a clean home. I can see that a difference in levels of caring about this issue causes conflict. I can have piles of stuff that I mean to tend to, but I don’t always do that immediately. I also recognize that we have different levels of tolerance for stuff in our home. I wish we had a lot less stuff.